PEACE.

OR, JUST SOME KRATOM TEA?

Hello my old birds, my darlings, just a quick one about peace and love and meditation.

I’ve had a chance to get back to a more stable state of mind instead of being frenetic and panicky, I’m not quite sure how it happened, but I made a breakthrough today.

I have been getting back involved into being more kind to myself. It sounds simple but in fact it’s really hard. When one is used to being and having an over active brain then this process seems far away, and indeed, not really desirable.

For many years I’ve been in a hurry about everything, an instant gratification type of woman! Suddenly however after getting back into exercise, yoga, meditation and herbal supplements, as well as my organic food and filtered water, reading etc everything has suddenly clicked into place just today. I clearly have managed to put all the building blocks together and suddenly found tranquillity in one leap this afternoon after getting back from a session at the gym. I’m not sure if it was some kind of attainment of a higher plane or what, but I do know that after a cup of Kratom tea I became a little dreamlike and just rested outside in the sunshine finding a pure kind of inner peace. I mean, this wasn’t forced it was the real thing. This continued so I went and laid down on the sofa feeling as if all my woes and anxieties had dissolved, I felt lucid and clear and extremely Zen, like a sleeping Buddha with a smile of bliss on my face.

I have never experienced anything like it before. All the practising at attempting to quieten my monkey brain and find inner peace had finally come into fruition. I took advantage of this after lying quietly and just enjoying this gentle euphoria. Then I tested it to see, by getting out into the sun and walking out into Soho’s unpleasantly busy and manic streets of the afternoon with the vague idea to come to the refence library to write about this sudden liberation from stress, surely I would crash and burn having to deal with the mob outside? As I walked, all the things that make me hysterical, anxious and well, furious, didn’t touch me. I literally felt enveloped by, well what would you call it, my guardian angel? Some kind of protective aura? I calmly walked down into busy, pushy Chinatown and still nothing could harm this amazing feeling of wellbeing. Going into ghastly Leicester Square also failed to ruffle me. Is this the Nirvana that we are told about and is so hard to achieve?

Sitting in the library writing this I still have a calm smile on my face and am bathing in a glow of complete happiness. It has all clicked into place that you just have to reach into yourself with love to achieve this. I’ve heard this said times but it frustratingly is just a step too far to reach. Well seemingly now it isn’t. How did this happen? Is it just the hard work I’ve put into myself and in understanding it all finally, or just divine intervention and Kratom tea. I’ll keep you posted on this.

Peace and love.

Apart from this revelation I will update you on the new challenges of getting back on the road again surviving on only my pension. Is this even possible? It’s suddenly bitterly cold at nights now and in the mornings which has startled me out of a dreadful inertia, and the prices are finally coming down on flights and accommodation at last. Let’s see if I can manage a trip to my beloved Tulum while making practical suggestions about how to achieve it on very little money but a brave heart and the love of travelling solo. Love to you all

OVER AND OUT FROM HIPPY DIPPY ZEN OLD BIRD FLYING HIGH